2013 was one heck of a year for me. If I had to choose a time in my life where I felt all kinds of emotions available to mankind, it would be this past year. My ups reached sky-rocket highs, but my downs hit rock bottom damn hard as well. With approximately three hours left before the clock strikes 12 and the calendar flips to 2014, I reflect on this past year by sharing with you the top 5 things that have shaped my 2013 into the roller coaster year that it truly was:
(1) I fell in and out of love.
Wow, lakas! Eto kagad?! Haha. But yes, it’s true–I did have a boy at the beginning of the year. In all honesty, he was a great guy; just not the one for me. And yes, I did love him.. or at least, I think I did? I guess it’s vague things like that that ultimately led to the breakup. When it’s not meant to be, it just won’t work. We parted ways a few days before Valentine’s Day (IKR? Talk about adding salt to injury!), and I was an emotional, albeit silent, wreck.
It took months for me to get over the split. In the long run, I knew there was more good in the breakup. But at the time of the breakup, your logic gets fazed and emotions overtake. You forget the bigger picture; you refuse to look for any hint of a silver lining. If you’ve ever gone through a breakup, you understand when I say that I used to literally feel my heart tighten and ache at the though of the once was.
And yet here I am now, ten months after the heartbreak, sincerely happy, completely satisfied, and incredibly thankful for yielding to God’s order and plan. I now look back at the once was and breathe a sigh of relief that God has already closed that chapter of my life. Truly, He knows what He’s doing.
(2) I used the heartache from #1 to propel me forward.
A few weeks after the guy and I called it quits, I decided I needed to do something to distract myself and keep my mind off of post-breakup thoughts (they can be quite haunting). The breakup then ultimately became the driving force behind my achievements that semester before summer, muahaha! For real though–I had been feeling so low and down in the dumps that I wanted to go for things that will make me feel good about myself. I applied for my college’s investment committee, The Blue Blazers, looked through my options for a suitable study abroad program, and worked my ass off in all my classes. The results? A Blue Blazers acceptance invitation, a Fall semester voyage around the world via Semester at Sea, and a spot in the Spring 2013 Dean’s List. Go, me! It was almost as if God was telling me, “O ha, you don’t need a man to make you happy!” Hehehe
(3) I got an internship!
My summer internship at Asia Society Manila was such a worth-while experience. I learned how to write company sponsorship letters, called a bunch of big shot organizations over the phone to confirm events, and was taught how to operate in an actual working environment that specifically deals with Asian and international relations. It didn’t hurt that the people I worked with were all so down-to-earth and funny! Definitely made the internship that much more exciting. Read the rest of this entry →